Finishing Charity

on March 4, 2013 in Misc

OMG I finally finished all major edits of Charity MacCay and the Almighty Dollar.

I am so tired.

But oh, I also feel so good.

I mean, my novel isn’t completely ready for print.  I’ll have to go back through it a couple times for nit-picky copy editing and proofing.  But really, after such a long hard haul and readings by several friends, it’s virtually FINISHED. Hallelujah.

The down side is, I now have to edit its sequel, Charity MacCay and Holy Relations.  And I want to publish these two books within weeks of each other.  Buy hey, I’ll worry about that later.

You know why I finished my edits today?  Because I woke up this Sunday morning thinking about my failures, and one of them was the way I’ve allowed so many tasks and projects to drag out seemingly forever.  I mean, I wrote my Charity books before writing The Compass Master.  But in my usual insecure way, I kept feeling that they needed more edits, more historical research, more rewrites, more feedback.  Because nothing I write is ever quite GOOD ENOUGH!

So I got out of bed and did some daily stuff and by the afternoon I was sitting down with the final chapters of my hard copy and then I parked myself in front of my computer to insert the changes and I didn’t get up until I was FINISHED.

Did I get outside at all?  Oh, sure. I made a quick trip to the grocery store this evening where I wondered how all the money that had been in my wallet vanished even though I had no fun this weekend.  But that was okay, because I felt lighter and happier.  Doesn’t it feel great when you’re near the end of a long, scary dark tunnel and the bright light you see is not an oncoming train?

So my day ended okay, especially since it began by waking up to guilt and nasty little whispers of depression.  Does that happen to any of you?  Waking up, maybe from dreams you can’t remember, with nagging doubts and guilt and regrets or wondering what might have been or all the things you should have done.  And then the only way to feel better is to throw yourself into whatever is bugging you, and in the end the hard work is worth it.

Have a great week.  And sweet awakenings.

18 Responses to “Finishing Charity”

  1. Congratulations on finishing the edits! Some stories just take a little longer. No worries.

  2. Robert L. Read says:

    Congratulations, Helena!

  3. Helena says:

    Alex — Thanks. And this story took sooooo long.

  4. Helena says:

    Robert – Thank you, sweetie!

  5. Keeping track of money can be hard to do. I mentally try to keep track but yep…sometimes I look at my wallet and think, “Didn’t I have some money in there?” Things are so expensive these days and everything just nickel and dimes you to death.

    Congratulations on finishing with your edits.

  6. Ciara Knight says:

    Major Congrats!!! That is awesome you finished edits. Don’t let that hint of depression win. Get up and go for a walk.

  7. Helena says:

    Ciara – I did some good exercising Sunday morning, which always helps my moods. One reason I exercise is that I get some serious endorphin rushes.

  8. Helena says:

    Michael – Nickle and dimed is right. Amazing how much just groceries and kitty supplies cost, and my cat likes cheap food no less.

  9. I’m all for Sweet Awakenings! And major congrats to you for finishing your book :) I don’t know if I told you I’m looking forward to reading The Compass Master. It’s working it’s way to the top of my list.

  10. Helena says:

    Carol – Thanks so much! And Solomon’s Compass and In Name Only are getting to the top of mine. Maybe we’re in sync.

  11. Hart Johnson says:

    Oh, YAY for finished projects! And I know I’ve said this, but let me reiterate–if you want a reader, I would LOVE TO. I am not your girl for commas (because I luuurve them too much) but I have good eyes for typos, wrong words, and that type of thing. Also good for sontinuity, character, plot stuff. Just shout!

  12. Helena says:

    Hart — Thank you so much for offering to read it! My biggest concern is continuity, character, etc., so maybe in a few weeks I can pack it off to you? Electronic/pdf or hard copy, whatever is easiest for you.

  13. Old Kitty says:

    Lovely Helena!! Well done you for staring your inner demons down and totally whacking them on the head!! Yay!! Congratulations on your finished wips!! Now go and whup those demons some more!
    :-) Take care
    x

  14. Helena says:

    Old Kitty – I like whupping those demons!

  15. Ben says:

    OMG! You’re still blogging! It’s been way too long. Loved The Compass Master, thanks again for sending me a copy like a year+ ago. It sounds like you’re finishing up another novel? Is it related at all to Layla, or are is it totally different?

  16. Helena says:

    Ben – OMG I’m so glad to hear from you, Ben! How’s school? How’s writing and movie making? I am so very glad you liked Compass. Yes, I’m editing two manuscripts (the second is a sequel to the first) which I wrote before Compass, but I thought Compass was more commercial so I published it first. Charity MacCay and the Almighty Dollar isn’t a thriller, but it is fast-paced, historical (1867-1868) and funny. It might be more of a woman’s book, but a man friend read it and really enjoyed it, so who knows?

    Yes, I’m still blogging, but only once a week now. Maybe this summer I’ll get back up to
    steam by really getting out and doing stuff again.

    So I want to hear all about you and how you’re doing. Blogging? Writing? And doing very well indeed, I hope.

  17. Ben says:

    Two manuscripts? You must be quite busy! Are you still doing freerunning/lock-picking/crazy Layla stuff on the side?
    Well, I graduate in two months with a degree in Screenwriting. I’m interning at a film production company in Minneapolis as a script reader. Annnd, i’m actually kinda having a “becoming Layla” journey of my own. A few months ago I decided to pursue a career in special operations in the military. I’m still narrowing it down to SEALS, Rangers, or MARSOC – but I was inspired by my favorite author Vince Flynn and his fictional CIA super agent Mitch Rapp. His books uncovered my long-ago buried passion for patriotism and badassery. So, I have created a year-long training regiment doing CrossFit (if you haven’t heard of CrossFit, look it up – it’s something I think you’d love.) So, it’s pretty different than my previous “life plans,” but i’d rather be living an action packed life instead of writing about people who are. =)

  18. Helena says:

    Ben — I am so impressed! I mean, I’m still doing lock-picking and fencing and stuff — not really freerunning. I also plan to finally get back into some more adventurous stuff this summer. But that can’t compare to your plans. You’re actually going to go for special ops like the SEALS? OMG! The best of luck to you. I know you’re more than disciplined, but I do think it’s a hoot you’ve got a secret yearning for badassery. Seriously, you’ve got to start up your blog again only this time you should document (as in a journal) your year-long training. Go for the action, you crazy guy!

    And a degree in screenwriting on top of that? You’ve got one interesting future ahead of you. But PLEASE promise you’ll stop by once in a while here or give me the name of your new blog (if you start one). I really want to keep up on all your news.